The Freedom of Letting Go
The past couple of week’s I’ve been focusing the Daily Inspiration and Affirmations on De-cluttering as well as on the concept of SURRENDERING.
The intention of today’s post, is for me, still part of this process of ‘Letting Go’, ‘Surrendering’ if you will, so I hope you’ll indulge me as I continue to purge and release the old and stale parts of myself.
Thank you in advance for your kind support!
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Last week I completed a five day raw fruit and vegetable cleanse.
I like to do this particular cleanse, given to me by my past business coach Rich German, at the beginning of each season with the intention of cleaning out my physical body as well as my emotional, mental and spiritual bodies, and creating space for whatever new wants to emerge and manifest in my life.
The first couple of days went by without a hitch. I woke up early, did my morning practices and meditation, went for a hike and/or worked out at the gym, came home and made my delicious fruit smoothie, grabbed a handful of raw almonds, and began my work day.
By day three, however, I was physically being challenged and made aware of all the toxins that I’d been holding onto in my body as my head began to pound and my back and neck became stiff and achy. I knew that there was no getting around the pain of actually releasing and letting go of all of the gunk that my body had been storing for the past three + months.
And as my body naturally began to cleanse and purify, I noticed that my thoughts and feelings weren’t far behind.
I began to experience a lot of doubt and fear and started to question myself about everything. What am I doing? Where am I going? Why am I doing this cleanse?
And at the same time, day three of the cleanse, a very difficult challenge arose in my business, literally out of the blue, it stunned me, stopped me in my tracks and made me want to give up everything that I’d worked so hard to achieve and just quit.
Eckhart Tolle said, “Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.”
I just happened to read this quote when all this stuff was going down, and for some reason, I was present enough to take pause and ask myself and the Universe these questions, “What am I supposed to learn from this?” “How can I see this as an opportunity?” What is the most loving choice that I can make for myself right now?”
And then it happened.
(WARNING: Woo Woo ALERT Below!!!)
I threw up my hands, dropped to my knees, and SURRENDERED.
There I was, in my home office, crying, ready to quit, feeling low, out of sorts, body aching, questioning my worth, my values, my life, (I know, pretty dramatic huh, but it felt so real at the time), and I literally fell to my knees.
And this is what I did next.
I then visualized a ball of all of this negativity, doubt and fear, and I continued to form it and pack it in as tightly as I could and then I physically went through the motion of throwing this ball, overhand, with all of my might, into the imagined incinerator that I created in my mind and I watched it go up in flames.
Woo, what relief I felt after that! There’s just something about fire that symbolizes purification to me. I felt like a huge burden had been removed from my shoulders. I felt lighter. I felt free.
Now, please don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying that all of the answer suddenly appeared after that. What I am saying is that I was able to successfully get out of my own way for a moment, to relinquish control (which I never really ever had), to lay the groundwork, clear the space and open my heart for, as Eckhart Tolle said, something new to emerge.
The next two days were pretty uneventful. I finished my cleanse feeling strong, energized and healthy.
Part two of the De-cluttering and cleansing came during the weekend when I tackled my closets and let go of many items that I had kept around for years and were taking up precious real estate in my closet; some of which I had never even worn once. Wow, what an amazing experience that was!
Perhaps I’ll share that story in my next post. 🙂
But for now, this feels like a good place to stop.
Here’s a quick list of my takeaways from this cleanse:
- Pain is part of the process.
- Expect the unexpected.
- Complete surrender is an act of humility.
- I have all of my own answers.
- I am loved and supported.
I hope you found this helpful, I know I did! 😉
Thank you again for reading this and for being here!
I’d love to hear your thoughts and/or experiences with cleansing, de-cluttering, and surrendering. Post your comments below, or if you prefer, head on over to my Facebook page and we can talk there!